after finally getting myself of the couch, and reading my bible, i read in psalm 57 - be exalted, O God, above the heavens, let your glory be over all the earth. and in psalm 96 - the seas will roar, the trees rejoice, the mountains be glad - why, when - when He comes as a judge. who is happy to see a judge? those who have viewed injustice. who is extra glad when a judge comes? those who have felt and experienced injustice. the trees, the seas, the mountains. they will rejoice when the judge comes.
i remembered when i was young and wise, (and yes - it seems that youth does know some things that i don't know now. 15 years and 2 kids seem to have chased alot of wisdom out of my mind.) and i was in the middle of a storm, and instead of hiding in side, i went out in it. and felt the rain and wind, i watched the lightning, and heard the thunder. i felt the majesty and power, and i watched the grass. the grass was dancing. huge drops of rain on the grass, and it was dancing. and i thought - God could use the grass. the grass could rejoice and praise Him, and He could use that and that alone, yet somehow He has allowed me to be of use as well. He allows me to praise Him.
and so - today, when i am blue and beige and brown, i will rejoice. i will look for the cheerfulness in the blue, and maybe even turn around and feel the sun on my face.
